A first

For a person dealing with anxiety going anywhere new or anywhere that has large crowds can be a nerve wracking experience. And because of that many events are just not possible for me to attend.

I have spent the last few years doing a lot of personal work with my anxiety so that I can experience things that most others take for granted. And today I am going to do something that a few years ago just wouldn’t have been possible.



I’m going to a hockey game!

The Canuks are playing San Jose and hopefully today’s game has a better outcome than last nights defeat.

Now I’m not really a sports person. I never have been but I decided earlier this year that I was going to make a conscious effort to change my ways and not be so judgmental about things that I haven’t really experienced. I am a bit of a snob when it comes to people that are all about the sports.

I just don’t’ get them. But then they usually just don’t get my love of books and knitting.

And there I go being Mrs. Judgy again. Ah... I try.

Yesterday James and I went downtown to take a look at the fake Christmas tree selection and we met a dear friend at the Stadium Skytrain Station to pick up the tickets. It was a brilliant idea because it gave me the opportunity to see how the crowds would be without having the pressure of having to actually deal with them. We just got the tickets and left.

So tonight when it’s my turn to go for real I’ll already be prepared. I now know how busy it’s going to be and because of that I’m excited instead of feeling as though I’m going to vomit.

And who knows, maybe I'll find out that there is a sports person in me afterall